Special thanks~♥

A veryyyyyyyyyyy special thanks to my darlyn for taking care of me while im sick...thanks alot dar...love u alwez... muacks ♥




27th december 2010 1.57pm

>.<''

Just only recovered from my fever, diarrhea and whatsoeverrrrrrr~
goshh...really hate the suffering days...from wednesday until now....

early this morning, means in the midnight...12am++ darlyn oredi start her flight to Beijing...she will be back on 31st december...miss her sooo much now..=(
Hope she reach there safely...take care my DAR..♥
just haf to tahan 5 days only...><''
but now felt like so tak biasa...morning dun haf her msg...

Tomolo haf to go for rehearsal again...for 31st december genting first world countdown show...performing really can become my part time job ady...even though it is tiring...
hope tis time wont sick again after going there...

Hope that my darlyn will come back safely on 31st december...my only wish for christmas even christmas is over oredi..

WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR~ =)


27th december2010 1.55pm

My thinking???

The older u get...the more ''headaches'' u will get...
As ur growing older, u haf to worry about many things...
worry about money, relationship, friendship, family, ur own interest and also many kind of stuff n shits...ur life will become much more complicated...yea....who doesnt wish to had no worries in LIFE at all...who doesnt wish to be born in a damn RICH family so we dun haf to worry about money at all...who doesnt wish to born perfectly handsome n pretty...who doesnttt????

We learn from the past...do the right things in the future...but somehow rules are meant to be broken...sometimes u will feel like breaking every rules that had been made...so obviously human love doing SHITS.

Our parents...we alwez spend their hard earn money without thinking of how hard they work to earn that amount of money to pay for our study fees, feed us and give us allowance...we spend their money without even thinking...
An example, when we are standing infront of a shop that we are going to buy our favourite shoe there, do we even think about how hard our parents earn that money???we juz only thinking about getting the shoe as fast as possible becoz we love that shoe...I noe for our age we had alot of CRAVINGS...we wan this...we wan that....wat also want...we are not earning money but we oredi started to buy and admire all those expensive stuff...drink expensive stuff...eat expensive stuff....SERIOUSLY THIS IS ALL BULLSHITSS!!i really hate myself sumtimes for tat....im bullshit!!
Sumtimes....i tink bout tis i felt like crying...crying for my mum...she is the best MOM ever...becoz i truly understood how she manage to raise me n my sister up even she is havin a big problem...when i was small...i cant even help my mum out...i haf no ability to do it...she does everytin all by herself...she work so hard...juz to kip me n my sis alive...she gave us life...and she also earn us a better LIFE...why are we so greedy wanting more???

I'm currently studying in college and seriously i hate studying...i juz dunno why...
I'm juz too lazyyyyyy...goshhh..when can i change myself???
Wat kind of bloody problem will jsut POP UP to ur life without any warning or notification....
I hate MONEY problem...coz for my age now is hard to earn money...
I hate STUDYING problem...coz i really cant memorize stuff easily...and i damn hate my stupid brain...or LAZY brain....
I hate FAMILY problem becoz it will spoil my mood for the whole life....
I hate RELATIONSHIP problem becoz it can kill me....
I hate FRIENDSHIP problem becoz i dun like to be misunderstood...
and i FUCKIN hate FAKERS.

I LOVE Bboying becoz it satisfied me while i done creating my own moves....and it makes me happy ....for awhile...lol
I LOVE mummy becoz she GAVE ME LIFE...
I LOVE darling becoz she understands me and i really nid her...
I LOVE my brothers becoz they are the only brothers that we could share our happiness and sadness together...we do shits...we make shits...and we eat shits...THATS THE WAY!
I LOVE some of my friends (of coz not all la, got bad friends n good friends mah) becoz they sumtimes give me happiness...and i do appreciate it for the ''sumtime happiness''
I love everyone who LOVES me...
and i do MISS some of my friends that i had already long time didnt meet them...
and i MISS the old time....
I MISS secondary school life...
I felt like i had lost many things...i felt like i had wasted some of my life doing bad SHITS..

This is every piece of my heart...

16th october 2010 12.59am

Sunway Lagoon trip~26th september 2010 sunday~

SUNWAY LAGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON...on tis day...(sudden plan from duno who) they said wanna go sunway lagoon..and it is a couple trip...LOL..Me and darlyn kioko,ryan and annoying momoko, and wack antion president Kingking and chel babi...i mean chel babe..XD

This oso consider a so called ''canceled trip'' by bla bla bla....and bla bla bla...
many things happen before and after the night...haha...u shud haf been there in the morning but turn up in the afternoon...who's fault???lol...some people may noe..i mean people who went to this trip may noe....XD

Of coz...in sunway lagoon we play slides...walk along the fake BEACH...and i miss the chance to walk on that bridge againnnn!!!arghh..went there so many times didnt even walk at that bloody bridge before..T.T we played outdoor games...water...dry...wet...those words seems so wrong o.o'' i mean wet games n dry games...ahahaha..syok sendiri..paiseh...XD

OK...lets juz skip to the interesting part...SS2 MURNI is a so called CHINESE MAMAK...and the food was freaking GREATTTT~!i mean really greattt!!oh bastardd!!LOL
we ordered enuff food on the table and suddenly someone wanna order chicken chop....lol..luckily didnt order becoz we cant even finish our own food...u noe who u are MY DEAR....OPPPSSS..hehehehe

Kingking was sick after halfway playing at sunway lagoon...and all the time he was so weak until i haf to piggyback him into clinic..=='' and then he recovered...and sick again....lol...we went to two clinics...the first one we cant make it becoz the doctor wasnt there...reason is went to makan...stupid doctor..dunno how to DAPAO ar??And nxt is clinic KW WONG if im not mistaken..lol..
In the car kingking was so weak and he is leaning on my darlyn's shoulder...KINGKING U WANNA DIE AR?????!!!!TAKIN ADVANTAGE!!!!hahaha..juz kidding la...see u so weak that time i let u stay alive lor...

Not much to tell about the trip...but it was great...everything seems so weird...wher got people trip halfway pergi clinic geh???ahhaha..

OVERALL....is nice hanging out with u guys...we will haf another trip yoooo~ehhe

sorry for my damn broken english+bryan language+weird languages and whatever it is....=) and sorry that the photo is abit weird..this is the only picture that we had taken that include six of us in the picture...XD

tuesday 5th october 2010 2.44am

Choices.♥

I chose to be with you...becoz i luv u
I chose to be myself...becoz i know me
I chose to hangout with my friends...becoz they are my friends
I chose to live...not becoz of me...but it is becoz of LIFE and DESTINY

I hope i can choose everything i wan...i hope i can decide how my life can be...
but it is impossible...anything can happen in our LIFE

for U the one i love...im not a rich guy, im not capable enuf,im not a perfect person,i may not be the dream guy u ever wanted, but...i promise...i will do watever i am capable to do to fulfill wat u ever nid,i wil try the best i can. end with lots of love. ♥ luv u.

4.15AM WEDNESDAY

.Feelings. =(

Feelings is something u can hardly describe or explain or telling someone how u actually feels...becoz it is sumtin u cant tell...u just feel it in ur heart...
Like dancing, when ur dancing to the beat...is ur heart to feel the song...not ur mind...not ur brain or watever...u juz moves with the music...u flow with it...

As time passes...the longer u take the time to express ur feeling to someone...the feeling may get stronger...and for some people...the feelings may get weaker until it is gone...Many things depend on time...time may heal...time is alwez the main reason for many things...becoz it brings u experiences, the longer u take to understand ur heart...u will experience many things..

I dunno wat is happening to me, my feelings towards......just faded away...it may coz by the treatment of......or maybe the time passes......and a brand new feeling is coming to me......i kinda hate it and at the same time i kinda like it too......i dunno how to manage this problem.......but i think i decided to just remain silent and c wats gonna happen next.....

Because of all this feelings....it makes me feel like a bad guy...i dun wanna be a bad guy...i seriously hate all the feeling stuff but this thing just caught me everytime....it spoils my mood...it makes me think alot....it makes me wondering...and also dreaming all the time....such a mood spoiler....

I just wan everything in my life to be as simple as possible...this will make me happy....people...or someone...or anybody else....pls dun be an IQ to me...makes me wondering wat are u tinking bout me or asking me to make decisions while ur not giving me any hints....i juz wanna be as happy as possible..living my life....

I really dunno what im thinking now....the feelings are bothering me...
but i hope i can face the reality soon....just to tell that...sumtimes a thing that ur oredi done for very long it will make u oredi USED TO IT...and it becomes ur daily routine...thats why ur doing it...and u wont and dunno how to quit doing it...
U haf feelings...u tell..u express...dun kip it in ur heart...

sorry...tis ''essay'' is wrote by me using my own heart language...people who is smart enuff may only understand the passages...

Sunday 15th august 2010 1.41am

对不起...=(

我知道妳每一次不开心时...妳都不会跟我说原因的...而我知道妳不开心时...我又不会逗妳开心...

从我认识你到现在...妳要的是了解...妳每一次问我了解妳的什么可是我却答不出...

其实, 在这里老实跟妳说...我真的是在慢慢的观察和了解你的...我虽然不能很肯定, 可是我懂...

妳的人是很喜欢把你心里的东西收着...尤其是那些很大的心里事...对吗???

妳懂不懂妳每一次那样都会让我心痛...我知道我在妳的世界里是不重要, 可是妳在我世界里是有多重要的妳懂吗.??

妳所想的东西...妳所要的...妳所期望的...我都不懂...

可是...我所期望的不多...只是想要你好好的照顾自己...妳的心理...妳的健康...不要每次想不开了...

对不起...我没用...逗不了妳开心...

19th July 2010 1.49am

What is Love?

For me...Love is sumtin that cant be explain...because love is sumtin u haf to someone...
There are many types of love...it can be a Friendship love, Family love, Pet love....and especially Falling in love...
And i believe this question is the most difficult question for the mankind...
and i also believe that nobody will gif the same answer for this question...
Love is how people felt in their heart...i cant be describe...it comes naturally towards someone...
Love can cause someone to be caring, protective, romantic, sacrificing, and many many more...it can cause anything...

But did u guys realize that LOVE is the main problem for almost everything??
War occurs because of the LOVE they felt for their country and the soldiers are willing to sacrifice themselves due to the Love for their country...
Fighting among human beings also caused by Lack of LOVE between them because they hate each other...
People suicide because they lack of LOVE...lack of care by their family and their loved ones..
People cried because of the death of their beLOVEd....
A mother love their child without any conditions...
So no one can gif the proper DEFINITION OF LOVE....

But pls dun ever ask me why do i LOVE u...the answer is i really dunno...
Even sometimes the feeling of Love is annoying...because it stops u from concentrating what u are doing right now because of missing someone..

I juz care for u for no reasons...because I LOVE U...sincerely from my heart..♥>

Presentation again~juz realizeeee!

Oh My GAWD! My classmate send me a message in Facebook, he told me that the following week is presentation week for my English Class, tat means i juz left few days to prepareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~arghhh!nid to prepare again...sien arrrr..i hate presentation arrrrrr...die lorrr...not yet prepare ehhh...

Even the assignment also not yet done...really shit ady...cham cham cham..
how how how....FAN AR FAN AR~FAN SEI YAN AR...lagi got the stupid photography assignments...BUNCH OF SHITS~!really spoil my mood already la...ARGHHH!

Wednesday is my freaking group presentation ady...die.......

18th July 2010 2.01am

''Tie Da''~aka Chinese traditional ''urut''~

Juz came back from Tie Da..LOL
Waa...The sifu this time really gaogao ''URUT'' me...neck kena...right hand and left hand also kena....damn pain...until my facial expression ''LARI TEMPAT''
But at least it helps alot...sifu said me eat too much of oily stuff too, tis wan i soso agree la..XP So from today onwards no OILY FOODS!!

Saw tis or not??especially the one who love to eat MCD wan...sifu even show me how my Nerve got stuck~he press my right hand nerve wei...XD u muz listen ar...i noe u will be seeing this...MCD really bad for health ar...and COKE also...no soft drinks better la...100plus is ok...Sifu also said Coke contain chemical...and i oredi knew this many years ago la...But this sifu really DOPE la, this the second time i visited him for this URUT...the first time my hand cannot even dance properly...after he fix it i can dance liao,EXAMPLE=cant airchair nicely...now airchair dope LIKE HELL.hahaha..~

Anyone wan to urut there leave a message on my FACEBOOK bah~~hehe.CHAOOOO

17th July 2010 3.45pm

Juz Came back from ROyal Phantom Studio~

I start to travel by public transport around 4pm++ to Royal phantom studio at Damansara...it took me around 3 hours++ to reach there...==''
After taking the LRT to Kelana Jaya...i haf waited for the stupid bus at kelana jaya for an hour becoz the driver of the bus to The Curve dunno ''fly'' go where....
And then when after i get into the bus and start my journey to The Curve...
The highway JAM pulak...my goshhh..After that when reach The Curve i tot the bus will head straight to the place but mana tau the bus didnt...
then we kena ''carry'' far away from The Curve around 1km bah...
My crew member Chris(president of topgangz) is waiting for me at The Curve ady...But luckily the place we kena ''carry'' to is not far away from The Curve...so they pick me up there and then we head to studio to start our praktising~~
Then my injured leg spoiled my day...Cant really dance well...arghh..even now my leg oso feel pain...pek cekk betolllll~! cant walk nicely wei.

After praktising we went to makan...the food really WACK!!taste like shit...seriously!!MY GOD~so expensive summore...
After that we plan to go Cyber Cafe but tak jadi becoz full house ady~and summore raining....waliaooo...

Now i would like to talk about one of my crew member LEO~he really too hamsap ady i cannot tahan...mother...he can even kip all the sexy girls picture in his phone and kip talking stories about that...and the way he behave makes me laugh alottttttttTTTTTT~seriously alottt!ahahahhaa~bloodyy hell wei.
Kip talking about his @#$%^&*( and also some porn shits...gosh..beh tahan him...i tink nxt time i join competition cannot see him la...if i saw him i laugh until my energy oso hilang ady...

Overall~I had Fun with them la~Hope they will kip improving as wat they promise...even i dun get any satisfaction seeing their improvement today.

Lastly...thanks CHRIS aka President for fetching me home.=)

17th July 2010 2.26am

Preparing to train wit my GANGZ..lol...AKA TOPGANGZ =)

Now im preparing to go Royal phantom studio from my college, TARC setapak...
Hope i wont get lost while taking public transport...==
First time going there by myself~and Melvin...lol..a so called retarded bboy...
haha~lets start movingggg~chao

16th July 2010 3.53pm

WELCOME PEOPLE!

Welcome!hehe. I created my BLOG last night and i duno wat to start in my BLOG.
Im new to blogging~haha~ Recently i felt like creating a BLOG at last i created ONE!
I will try to update my status as often as i could~ENJOY and thank you for visiting ya~^^