My thinking???

The older u get...the more ''headaches'' u will get...
As ur growing older, u haf to worry about many things...
worry about money, relationship, friendship, family, ur own interest and also many kind of stuff n shits...ur life will become much more complicated...yea....who doesnt wish to had no worries in LIFE at all...who doesnt wish to be born in a damn RICH family so we dun haf to worry about money at all...who doesnt wish to born perfectly handsome n pretty...who doesnttt????

We learn from the past...do the right things in the future...but somehow rules are meant to be broken...sometimes u will feel like breaking every rules that had been made...so obviously human love doing SHITS.

Our parents...we alwez spend their hard earn money without thinking of how hard they work to earn that amount of money to pay for our study fees, feed us and give us allowance...we spend their money without even thinking...
An example, when we are standing infront of a shop that we are going to buy our favourite shoe there, do we even think about how hard our parents earn that money???we juz only thinking about getting the shoe as fast as possible becoz we love that shoe...I noe for our age we had alot of CRAVINGS...we wan this...we wan that....wat also want...we are not earning money but we oredi started to buy and admire all those expensive stuff...drink expensive stuff...eat expensive stuff....SERIOUSLY THIS IS ALL BULLSHITSS!!i really hate myself sumtimes for tat....im bullshit!!
Sumtimes....i tink bout tis i felt like crying...crying for my mum...she is the best MOM ever...becoz i truly understood how she manage to raise me n my sister up even she is havin a big problem...when i was small...i cant even help my mum out...i haf no ability to do it...she does everytin all by herself...she work so hard...juz to kip me n my sis alive...she gave us life...and she also earn us a better LIFE...why are we so greedy wanting more???

I'm currently studying in college and seriously i hate studying...i juz dunno why...
I'm juz too lazyyyyyy...goshhh..when can i change myself???
Wat kind of bloody problem will jsut POP UP to ur life without any warning or notification....
I hate MONEY problem...coz for my age now is hard to earn money...
I hate STUDYING problem...coz i really cant memorize stuff easily...and i damn hate my stupid brain...or LAZY brain....
I hate FAMILY problem becoz it will spoil my mood for the whole life....
I hate RELATIONSHIP problem becoz it can kill me....
I hate FRIENDSHIP problem becoz i dun like to be misunderstood...
and i FUCKIN hate FAKERS.

I LOVE Bboying becoz it satisfied me while i done creating my own moves....and it makes me happy ....for awhile...lol
I LOVE mummy becoz she GAVE ME LIFE...
I LOVE darling becoz she understands me and i really nid her...
I LOVE my brothers becoz they are the only brothers that we could share our happiness and sadness together...we do shits...we make shits...and we eat shits...THATS THE WAY!
I LOVE some of my friends (of coz not all la, got bad friends n good friends mah) becoz they sumtimes give me happiness...and i do appreciate it for the ''sumtime happiness''
I love everyone who LOVES me...
and i do MISS some of my friends that i had already long time didnt meet them...
and i MISS the old time....
I MISS secondary school life...
I felt like i had lost many things...i felt like i had wasted some of my life doing bad SHITS..

This is every piece of my heart...

16th october 2010 12.59am